Thursday, July 19, 2012
Molly(s)
Sunday, July 15, 2012
The phone call – part deux
Doug, Patty and I sat there starring at Mom talking to my brother David on the telephone. I was so impressed at my Mother’s strength. She didn’t break down – nor did her voice quiver. Doug and Patty sat on their couch starring intently at Mom. I looked from one to the other and was grateful nobody was looking at me because I was on the verge of hyper ventilating. My breath would not come and I suddenly felt so cold. I realize now, I was truly scared – not a feeling I have had very often in my life.
Hanging up the phone, Mom didn’t have a lot of details. All we knew was that Dad had a heart attack sometime earlier that afternoon. He was taken to Montague Hospital and then immediately transported to the QE Hospital (QEH) in Charlottetown. I recall Mom looking at me and I immediately saw what she was feeling. She needed to get home asap. I looked at her and said, I’ll get your ticket changed – and get a ticket for myself. I got on Doug’s computer and within twenty minutes, I had tickets for us both to fly home the next day. I will say that the Westjet agent I spoke to was incredibly kind, considerate and helpful when I briefly explained the situation. Doug and Patty were incredible too. I felt bad that they had to experience getting that news with Mom and myself – not that we had any control over it. They drove us back to my apartment that night and offered to take us to the airport the next day. I especially appreciated these acts because that Saturday afternoon Mom had began to come down with the same flu like symptoms that my younger brother Peter had a few days earlier. By the following day, Mom had a full blown viral flu.
That Saturday night we got back to the apartment, I quickly got myself organized, and began making phone calls. The first one was to the QEH as Mom wanted to speak with Dad. This helped immensely because he sounded good – like himself. He even told Mom not to bother coming home and to stay and enjoy her visit with me. We realized then that he did not comprehend the severity of what happened and was still in denial, which Mom said is typical of a lot of men. With our nerves a little more calmed, we then called David back to tell him our flight information. It then occurred to me to ask him how he tracked us down at Doug and Patty’s home. Apparently Mom had emailed David that morning and said we were going to the Textile Museum and to Doug and Patty’s the evening. David looked in Mom’s address book for the Baldwin’s number but only found their address. He then found their telephone number using Canada 411. Sure enough, I checked my messages after getting home that evening and there was one from both Peter and David. Hearing David’s voice message chilled me. His tone indicated there was something obviously very wrong.
I began making phone calls and writing emails. I first took care of work, emailing my manager and senior coordinators that I would be gone at least a week. I then contacted my close friends to briefly explain what happened. It then occurred to us that we would need to call Dad’s brother Frank in Montreal and contact Mom’s sisters. Once the information got distributed then the calls started coming in – first from Mom’s sister Margie and then from Frank and Aletha. This went on for a few hours. Mom talked and I got ready. I emptied my fridge out, put my garbage out, got my plants ready and then began to pack. The following day Doug and Patty took us to the airport. I gave Patty all the perishable items from my fridge as well as the tickets to War Horse I had purchased for Mom and me. Before we knew it, we were on the flight home.
The following day Mom and I returned to the hospital and we started asking questions about how everything had played out. The more we heard, the more horrified my Mom became. Apparently Dad had been driving the tractor when he began to experience a crushing in his chest. He then pulled the tractor up to the patio, got off, went in to the house and sat in his beloved lazy boy chair so as to ‘wait for it to pass.’ Initially he said this lasted for 30 minutes, which later changed to an hour, and then to maybe 1.5 hours. After that he proceeded to get back on the tractor and get an additional seven bales of silage from the field. He then returned to the house and upon seeing Peter he asked “With your flu did you experience a crushing in your chest?” Peter’s response: “Ah, NOOOOOOOO,” after which he immediately called David, who came right away and took Dad’s blood pressure, which of course was ‘up.’ David wanted to call an ambulance but Dad refused. Dad then proceeded to take a shower and ask David to drive him to Montague Hospital. Upon arriving at the hospital, the Doctor quickly determined Dad had a heart attack and he was shipped off to the QEH in Charlottetown. After telling us this Dad then stated “And they tell me I had a heart attack,” which he continued to say for the majority of that week. I recall the horror on Mom’s face when he finished. All I could think of was “This would have played out so differently if Mom had been home.”
We then ran into the Easter Holiday weekend, and Dad was still not booked for his trip to St. John. I had to decide to change my flight or not and to be honest, I struggled with it. I wanted to stay but was worried. I had a new manager and wasn’t sure how she’d react to the entire situation. After Dad said to me “It would be nice if you could stay and see this all the way through” I thought “To hell with it, I’m staying” (and my manager ended up being wonderful about everything upon my return back to work). So I stayed another week and am so glad I did.
Dad had a lot of visitors that week at the QEH. There were people from the Bay, his farmer friends, and of course family. Danny was out a few times and Erica came with Fineas and Marianne, and Terri came with her baby Hudson, which thrilled him. Jimmie MacAulay came to visit no less than three times and also appreciated was the fact that Olive Crane took time out of her busy schedule to come and see Dad the night before the opening of the house. At home, it was also heart warming to see the support of friends and neighbours. Because we were all sick, Mike Casey brought a vat of chicken soup to the house. Our dear neighbour and cousin Lillian also brought chicken soup, fish cakes and cookies – all freshly backed and cooked. Noel and Louise MacDonald came to help Peter every evening with the chores. It was wonderfully touching to witness all this support and of course, there were no surprises as to who didn’t show up.
When we arrived in St. John, the nurses proceeded with Dad’s admission and allowed me to remain sitting with him while doing so. When they asked him where he was, I was shocked when he said “Georgetown.” It wasn’t until that moment did I realize the extent to how confused he really was. It was so difficult to sit there and not be able to help him. But I knew by the look on his face that he knew he was *off* and how it was frustrating him. And the longer we stayed in St. John, the worse it got. After four days, I recall my Mom saying to me “Is he losing his mind?” to which I replied “I don’t know but I think I am.” We had all been in the hospital for 12+ days and we were all getting a little shack happy. Once we got to St. John, Dad kept getting bumped due to emergencies. But our brief stay in St. John did come with some funny moments. There were several “codes” announced in the hospital indicating a violent patient had gotten loose. On one of our walks around the unit, I found a vial of blood in a Ziploc bag on the floor and thought/insisted it was a marker. Mom’s response: “Ah, no it is definitely not a marker.” Needless to say, I am still getting teased about this. There’s always a funny story or two that seems to follow my Mom and I when we get together.
The Thursday of that week in St. John, Dad finally had his angioplasty (dye test) procedure done and one stint implanted. The dye test determined that he had one blockage at 90% and two other blockages at 40%. He got along fine and the next day we were en route back home to PEI. Before having the procedure done, Dad had to take off his wedding ring and watch. I added his wedding ring to my chain, which I wear my grandmother’s wedding ring on. I was surprised at how good the two rings looked together. I told Dad this after getting home, he chucked, and then said “Give me my ring back please before you ‘accidently’ take it back to Toronto.
Saturday, July 07, 2012
The phone call
I had to go to work that Friday but after work our first event commended. My friend Dee, Mom and myself headed for a manicure and pedicure at Cozy Nails. We had our feet and hands scrubbed, backs massaged in the salon’s comfortable massage chairs, and the complementary fruit smoothie. Oddly, we all choose the same colour for our toes. Dee had chosen this colour on a previous trip and I loved it. So we all gave it a go.
Monday, July 02, 2012
Barbeque Safety
Take a few simple precautions to safe and fire-free barbeque season this year...as instructed by the PEI Fire Marshall (who just happens to be my older brother!)
Sunday, May 27, 2012
My Annie
If you grew up in Canada you of course knew Anne Murray. I certainly did. She was and continues to be one of my Dad’s favourite singers. So much so, he still affectionately refers to her as “My Annie.” In 2001, I attended the East Coast Music Awards (ECMAs) in Charlottetown with my fiddle teacher Timothy Chaisson and his family. That evening Anne Murray was awarded with the board of directors’ special achievement award. The speech she made that night left a lasting impression on me. I had seen her interviewed before and thought she was kind of full of herself. But that night she was humble and appreciative of all her PEI connections that had helped shape the early years of her career. Islander Gene MacLellan, for example, wrote the infamous “Snowbird.” Owner of the Prince Edward Room in Charlottetown, Johnny Reid had given Anne one of her first professional singing engagement. She recognized them all and in doing so, my impression of her started to shift.
In 2008 Anne Murray retired and in the following year, her autobiography All of Me was published. This past year, I purchased the audio book for my Father as part of his Christmas present. Before doing so, I listened to the first chapter online – and was hooked. So much so, I purchased it on my e-reader after Christmas. I of course was surprised and delighted at how often she mentioned her PEI connections. Anne’s first job after graduating from her undergraduate degree at the University of New Brunswick was teaching physical education and health at the Athena Regional High School in Summerside, PEI:
I loved teaching and I loved the kids, most of whom were from rural PEI, and had to be bused to school. The vast majority had an innate sense of respect for teachers that sadly, seems to have gone out of fashion. There were no discipline problems and we got on famously...
One day in 1969, Bill Langstroth called, raving about a singer-songwriter guest on the Don Messer show that week. His name was Gene MacLellan. Bill arranged for me to meet him in a small conference room in the CBC Studios in Bell Road in Halifax. He'd only started writing songs a year earlier,, and we sat there while he played and sang a few of them, including "Snowbird." I couldn't believe my ears. Even then it had that signature five-note trill at the end, the rising notes corresponding to the ascending flight path of a bird. He said he'd written it in twenty-five minutes and had sung it at political rallies in PEI, but it had never been recorded and wasn't widely known. Here was a fresh new song and I knew instantly it was a good one, though I would never have predicted the impact it would have on my career....At the end of our meeting he said, "If you like the songs, you can have them" - so typical of Gene, who was generous to a fault.
This book was a captivating read and the dry humor that was woven throughout the book was a welcomed surprise. Especially amusing and unexpected was all her stories concerning her band members drug use:
Our next stop was the Bitter End in New York, the basement coffee-shop-turned-celebrated-nightclub.....Considering that I was hissed at by a few Hippies and considering that Pat Riccio, my new keyboard player, was enjoying his first acid trip on opening night, we did okay eliciting a strong notice in the New York Times.
I have a newfound respect and admiration for Anne Murray after reading this book. If you have the chance, I highly recommend it. And if you want to hear the book in her voice, the audio version is a nice alternative. In the meantime, I’ll leave you with a video of Anne singing Snowbird in 1970, the year before I was born.
Sunday, March 18, 2012
Harold
Harold died in his early 90s. Born Harold Hilary Lewis at the turn of the 20th century, Harold was the eldest child of Robert Lewis and Sarah McIsaac of Cable Head. I am unsure who the Harold was that he was named after, but the “Hilary” component of his name was after his grandfather Hilary McIsaac – a well known and respected man in St. Peters Bay. Of the other six other children Robert and Sarah would go on to have, Harold was the only one to have a studio photograph taken of him as a child. I have loved this photo of him from the moment I saw it. I once asked his sister Hilda (aka Auntie) about the photo. She chucked with that sweet little laugh of hers and said something to the effect that Harold had been a ‘favourite’ of his Aunt Dean (Robert’s sister), who had taken Harold on the train to a studio in Charlottetown to get his photograph taken.
I do not know many of the details of Harold’s early life or how much formal schooling he had, but recall Auntie saying that you could not stick with him geography. I also remember that he read the daily newspaper cover to cover every day. What I do know is that in his 20s, Harold travelled to western Canada three times. Twice he worked on harvest excursions and once he went to British Columbia to work in a lumber camp. I recall seeing two mounted photographs of this lumber camp and Auntie saying that Harold treasured these photographs.
Harold eventually returned to the Island and his father Robert helped set him up on a farm on the Greenwich Road. Robert purchased property directly behind his own and there was at one time a well travelled road between the two farms, which has since largely grown over with bush. Harold built himself a lovely four-bedroom home, equipped with a dining room, parlour, large old fashioned country kitchen, and a balcony on the second story. Like most young men, I suspect he eventually had plans to marry and settle down and have a family of his own. I heard much later in life that he actually did ask a woman to marry him – but she said no. Marriage was not in the cards for Harold. But in a tragic twist of fate, he would in every sense ultimately become a father to a ready-made family of four – the children of his sister Mary.

Harold’s sister Mary is my paternal grandmother. In a previous post, I explained how both her and my grandfather Eugene died tragically young, thus leaving behind their four children. Mary’s dying wish had been (1) that the children remain together and (2) that her sister Hilda would raise the children. After Mary’s death on January 7th, 1944, my father and his siblings were brought to the old Lewis homestead in Cable Head and at some point that Spring a decision was made that Auntie and the children would more in with Harold.
From all accounts before their arrival, Harold had been living in his home as a typical bachelor. There was a wood burning stove in the kitchen, he had a bed in his room, and Auntie arrived to find the parlour full of grain. The furniture and possessions from Mary’s home in Morell were moved up to Greenwich and it is the furniture that fills the house to this day.
In every respect, Harold was the patriarch of our family. He was a father figure to my Dad and his siblings and a grandfather in every respect to us six grandkids. Typical of his Scottish nature, Harold was a quiet and unassuming man, yet was capable of letting a zinger go at the most unexpected moments much to everyone’s amusement. He was a successful farmer and having lived through the Depression, he knew the value of a dollar. Over the years, he saw the value in land and purchased many surrounding farms when neighbouring families left for urban centres. The majority of this land is now owned by my father and will eventually be owned by my brother – thus enabling them to continue farming. The legacy of this land they owe completely to him.
Growing up, I spent as much time next door at Harold’s as I did at home. But I can honestly say Harold was not a man who was easy to sit and have a conversation with – it was generally Auntie and their other brother Joe who asked us questions and inquired about our activities. But we knew Harold cared for us all. One thing Harold and I had in common was our sweet tooth. I knew all his hiding places for his candy and chocolates and he never once complained and said a word when I got into it – although he knew it was me that was into “his stash.” Nor did he complain when I drank his beer...I can’t believe they let me do this – and then took a photo of it!

One thing I remember about Harold is that he was an amazing gardener. Every year as a child, I recall him putting in an enormous garden that he took great pride in. Although vegetables were not my favorite item to eat as a child, I loved going to the garden to pick various items – my favorite being the string beans. We all loved corn and ate fresh corn out of his garden every summer. As he got older and well into his late ‘80s, Harold became very feeble and poor on his feet. But this didn’t stop him from going into his garden. When he got tired he would rest – and sometimes have a nap in the drills if necessary. This of course scared the shit out of people who drove into the yard and saw him lying in the garden and of course assumed he was dead. We were so used to it we’d just say “No, he’s just having a nap.” Poor Auntie had a lot of washing to deal with as his clothes were always filthy after these “naps” in the garden.
They could not keep him out of the garden – nor could they keep him off his tractor. Technically it was a red “Farm All Super H tractor” that Harold purchased new for $2,500. By the time I was a child, it was a tractor that the sun had faded to a dull shade of pink and whose stand out feature was a seat that was supported by a visible set of enormous springs. I can still see Harold bouncing along driving the tractor with a straw hat on his head. Harold drove this tractor well past the time that he should have. Because of a slight stoke he had in his early 80s, Harold had difficulty turning his neck – something necessary for safe driving. Pulling out of his driveway, he never looked – because he couldn’t. The neighbours knew well enough to slow down and keep out of his way if they saw him coming. He should not have been driving but he did what he wanted and no matter what Auntie said, they couldn’t keep him off the tractor. Eventually Dad said enough was enough as he could no longer ignore the danger Harold presented to both himself and others driving the tractor. Dad took the coil wire off the tractor (thus disabling it) and threw the wire it into our neighbour Gordon Hayden’s hay field. I took a black and white photo of this tractor (below) that I’ve had hanging in my apartment for years.
In Frank Ledwell’s Island Sketchbook, he references Harold in a short story entitled “School Christmas Concert:”
The Grade Fives were on next and sang, a bit off-key, but nonetheless vigorously, the song “Hark the Herald Angels Sing.” They sang “harold” rather than “herald” because Harold Lewis was a farmer in the community, and they were more familiar with this rendition of the word.
I am not sure how Harold would have felt being referenced in a literary work by such a well known Island writer. Although he was such a shy man, I think he would have gotten a kick out of it. I certainly did and after reading it, wrote Frank a letter to thank him for referencing Harold.
Because I am the only one in my immediate family who lives “away”, I naturally think of home a lot. I remember taking the train overnight from Halifax to Montreal in February of 1996 for my interview for the JET programme. I of course had a lot of time to think on the long train journey. I was in my last year of undergraduate studies and I couldn’t help but wonder what the next few years of life held in store for me if I did end up going to Japan as I had hoped. And for some reason on that train ride, I recall thinking of Harold and wrote the poem below. Harold had such an impact on my father’s life and subsequent generations. I will always be grateful for all he did for our family.
The Past and the Future
Two toots past Bathurst.
Looking at my hands as they hold the water bottle,
I feel his presence.
We were both the same age
As we set out on our excursions.
His to the West – mine to the East.
Harvest excursions and BC lumber camps –
these stories and memories now unattainable.
Perhaps it is his presence urging me on –
To follow this path of adventure and excitement.
And to learn from his wisdom,
Of always following the path back home.
MJR
February 1996
Sunday, March 11, 2012
Chéticamp Hooked Rugs
The development of the rug hooking industry in Chéticamp originates with a visit by American artist Lillian Burke to Cape Breton in 1927. Burke, who was visiting the family of Alexander Graham Bell at their summer home in nearby Baddeck, saw the hooked rugs being produced in Chéticamp and saw the potential retail value in the rugs. Being an artist, she also saw how the rugs could and should be improved and it was at this point that the way the hooked rugs were being made in Chéticamp champed under Burke’s direction. Lillian Burke eventually opened a studio in New York where she spent time finding buyers for the rugs as well as stamping designs on rugs to be hooked, which were sent back to Chéticamp.
In the 1940s the first tourist buses arrived in Chéticamp and in their book, Chaisson and Deveau offer a hilarious account of a local’s alarm at witnessing this event:
“The first visit of a busload of about forty tourists caused a sensation in Chéticamp. Polite a Canivet, who had gone down to the harbor, returned home completely overwhelmed. He said to his wife, “The world has gone mad! A bus load of people from God only knows where has arrived. They have bought all the rugs from the exhibition and what is even more crazy, they have accorded first prize to Catherine’s rug.” Deep down, he was a bit jealous for his own daughter Adele, who had also exhibited some beautiful works but had not won the prize.”
The tourism business continues to thrive in Chéticamp today, with hooked rugs being the choice item of purchase. I have two small pieces myself, given to me by my sister-in-law Karen, which now adorn my vanity table.
The photographs on either side of the mirror are images of Auntie`s hooked rugs.
Testament to the quality of the Chéticamp hooked rugs is documentation of the various rugs presented to the Canadian Prime Ministers, American Presidents, and other public figures over the years. When Elizabeth LeFort presented her hooked rug to Queen Elizabeth in 1959, she told Queen it took her eleven days to compete it, to which the Queen replied “Eleven days of work, but no doubt a lifetime of experience.”
What I also liked about the book is that in addition to documenting the development of the rug hooking industry, the book also profiles various men and women in the community who made significant contributions to the industry and who were considered leaders in the craft for doing so. One such individual was Elizabeth LeFort, for whom a gallery is named in the Acadian Museum in Chéticamp. Considered Chéticamp's most famous artist in wool, Elizabeth LeFort was also awarded an honorary doctorate by Université de Moncton in 1975 and was made a member of the Order of Canada in 1987.
For anyone else who has dabbled in any such craft, hooking rugs offered the women (and some men) of Chéticamp an artistic outlet, but it was not without a lot of work in itself. In their book, Chaisson and Deveau offer a glimpse of the work that was initially involved in rug hooking:
“In the days when homes had no running water, the women, during the summer, would go to a river or brook to dye their wool. The necessary materials, the wool, the dye, the acid, the vats, and the wood for building the fire, had to be transported to the chosen site. Everything was loaded into carts which the men drove to the brook or river in the morning and brought back home at night with the results of the day’s work. So they would not waste time, the women would bring their spinning wheels and would spin the wool while the water heated up. When the water had reached the right temperature, they would dye their wool.”
In the descriptions of this work and these women, I saw Auntie. I was reminded that unlike myself, these women didn`t just go to the local woolen mill and purchase beautifully dyed skeins of wool. They sheared the sheep, spun the wool and dyed it themselves. I recall Auntie talking about going to Ashton (a woodlot area near St. Peters Bay where our family owns wood land) and getting the bark from various trees to use in the dyeing process – and then her pointing that specific color out to me in her rugs. There was a lot of work involved, but I suppose it was *different* work from the everyday chores. It allowed women like Auntie a way to express themselves and take pride in their artistic abilities.
I still have her oversize rug hooking frames at home, which actually belonged to her mother Sarah (McIsaac) Lewis. I also have their hooks and one from my maternal side of the family that belonged to my great-great Grandmother Josephine (MacAulay) Steele, which was made for her by her father Michael MacAulay.

The sketch above shows how hooks were traditionally made.
Rug hook made my Great-Great-Great Grandfather Michael MacAulay for his daughter Josephine.
My Great-Grandmother’s rug hooks. On the left – hook used by Josephine Steele and on the right, the hook used by Sarah Lewis. The hook on the right is the one I have used for the majority of my own hooked rugs.
My collection of rug hooks – including an example of a modern one (snazzy orange one) given to me by my craft friend Krista.
Growing up in small community and growing up in the same yard as my grandmother, I very early on saw the value in hooked rugs. The stories they told and the memories they represented. I thorough enjoyed the book written by Anselme Chaisson and Annie-Rose Deveau and now have a better understanding of why the rug hookers in Chéticamp had gained the recognition and notoriety they have.
For more information on Chéticamp hooked rugs:
Cheticamp Hooked Rugs – instructional video
Cheticamp Hooked Rugs Coopérative Artisanale
Hooked Rug Museum of North America
Winter 2008 issue of O (Oprah) at Home magazine
Sunday, February 12, 2012
2005
One of the very first entries of the year documented my brother’s six week check-up with his doctor following his Cancer surgery. Six years later, I am happy to report he is still Cancer free. I then documented that I was waiting to hear from the University of Toronto about my application to the Master’s degree program in its Faculty of Information Studies. On the 12th of March, I documented that I had received my acceptance letter from the University. Also dotting these initial entries are mention of visits with Grammie in Souris West and the adventure in wallpapering that Hilda and I undertook when we papered Grammie’s bedroom that January.
June marked a trip to Ottawa for my friend Beth’s wedding. Six years later, her and her husband are separated and she is living in another country. While in Ottawa, I stayed with my cousins – Patsy and Gene Lewis – and also had great visits with the rest of my Lewis cousins. Six years later, Patsy is now deceased.
July of 2005 marked one of the two pivotal events of that year for me. On the 28th of July, I took my Grandmother to the hospital and sometime the following week wrote:
After work on July 28th (Thursday), I took her to the hospital. She had trouble breathing, but managed to walk into the hospital on her own accord. At that time, no one was sure what was wrong with her, but I had a sinking feeling in my gut it was not good.
The following Thursday she died, surrounded by Mom, me, Margie, Walter, Allen & Betty, and her nieces Theresa Murphy and Cathy Gallant, in the same hospital room that Auntie had died in two years earlier. There are then pages and pages documenting all the facets of her wake and funeral and the kindness of our friends, neighbours and community in their expressions of sympathy. One thing I documented that I had forgotten was Father Gallant noting in his homily of Grammie’s “fondness for poetry and the soil east of Souris,” which was so touching.
I say that this was a pivotal event in my life, because I was so incredibly close to my Grandmother. I now realize how fortunate I was to get to know her as an adult. I saw her at least once a week and if I was working in another province, we’d frequently talk on the telephone. She told me on more than one occasion that she felt I was like another daughter to her rather than a granddaughter. I was dreading saying good-bye to her when I was to leave for Toronto that September, but as it turned out my good-bye to her happened sooner than I had expected. Within three weeks of her death, I was in Toronto set to begin a new chapter in my life, but I of course took her, and continue to take her in my heart wherever I go. Here is a photo of us I keep on my fridge.
September of 2005 marked my move to Toronto – the second pivotal event in my life that year. My diary entries document the challenges, uncertainties and eventual triumphs that came with returning to school to do a graduate degree in a city unknown to me - in my mid-thirties. My diary also documents that I realized I needed the challenge, and I took pride in fact that I excelled in my studies. Six years later these studies now seem so long ago and I will soon be entering my fifth year of employment in the second largest Archives in the country.
My diary entries that Fall also document a reunion with my friend and former Professor, Dr. John Thomas. He was a wonderful mentor to me during my undergraduate degree at Acadia. Another Acadia History pal and I had three knee slapping beer swilling outings with Dr. Thomas that Fall. That Christmas, John was diagnosed with cancer of the tongue. I only saw him one more time. Within a year John was dead at the age of 56. His death was devastating for me, but I was grateful for these outings, for all the office time, advice and guidance he gave to me at Acadia and for all he taught me in his death. Six years later, I have become friends with John’s parents, and completely dissolved the friendship with the Acadia History pal with whom I enjoyed the visits with Thomas that Fall.
That Fall, my journal also documents attending book readings by Margaret Atwood and Frank McCourt. I met them after the readings and had books signed by both authors. Frank McCourt was of course charming in typical Irish fashion. When he heard that my name was “Juanita” he proceeded to sing to me a few lines from the old ballad “Juanita.” I was completely charmed – and of course loved the Teacher Man novel that I purchased and had him sign that night. Six years later, Frank McCourt is also dead. I recall Margaret Atwood looking at me – one of those looks that go straight through you – and the small smile she gave me. I was grateful for that smile because she is, well, terrifying.
On November 22nd, 2005, I made the following entry in my diary:
“Today I discovered that FIS are going to be able to send two students to South Africa to work with the Nelson Mandela Foundation. My heart skipped a beat when I heard this. I want to go.”
Within six months I was in South Africa. I was one of two students chosen from eighteen applicants to go to South Africa to work in the NMF’s Centre of Memory. Verne Harris became a friend. I met Nelson Mandela. In addition to South Africa, I visited Lesotho, Swaziland, Botswana, and Namibia. It was a hell of a summer.
The year 2005, brought with it a lot of ups and downs and twists and turns – more so than usual. I am just glad I had the sense to document it all. And reading this journal has encouraged me to be more diligent in my journal writing.
Saturday, February 11, 2012
Held in the arms of your words
This light at the end of the day
When even the highways seem still
The map in my hands folded shut
There isn't one magical word
But a carnival of them instead
Like an old silent cinema screen
And in this light you are framed classically
Just a painting that hangs in my head
That I know like the back of my hand
With the sunset the neon awakes
And the cold colours dance on your skin
And finally the modern makes sense... to me
You're effortless you know you are and all I want to do
Is let you lead me off into the dusk
Our shadows kiss before we do and right here in the dark
I revel in the calm before the storm
The garden is haunted by us
And every mistake that we've made
Is at peace cause it lead us both here
The thought that just burns into me
Of you in the ink of the night
Is the breathtaking danger of you
You're effortless you know you are and all I want to do
Is let you lead me off into the dusk
Our shadows kiss before we do and right here in the dark
I revel in the calm before the storm
This is life, this is all I want from life
It's the fervour and the tenderness combined
In the dark, in the ever-falling dark
We are anchorless adrift but barely notice
Sunday, February 05, 2012
January reads
My friend Laura is always sending me interesting books. For Christmas, she gave me a book written by Acadia graduate Andria Hill entitled Mona Parsons: From Privilege to Prison, from Nova Scotia to Nazi Europe (2000). As soon as I saw it, I instantly remembered seeing it on my fiend Marlene’s coffee table many years ago. I started reading it immediately and the story of Mona Parson’s life quickly drew me in.

Mona was born in 1901, grew up in Nova Scotia’s Annapolis Valley, and eventually graduated from Acadia’s Ladies Seminary. She married millionaire Willem Leonhardt in 1937 and they lived as husband and wife in Leonhardt’s native Holland. The majority of the book centres on Mona’s time in Holland with Willem. Unfortunately, the majority of Mona’s time in Holland also coincided with WWII, which set the stage for an extraordinary chapter in Mona’s life.
After only three years of married life, Mona was in Holland when it was invaded by Nazi Germany in 1940. Although Mona was a wealthy socialite, she believed it was necessary to resist the Nazi occupation in whatever way she could. Mona and Willem joined a network of people who vowed to do whatever they could to counter the Nazis' invasion and their efforts were often concentrated in helping downed Allied fliers evade capture and help them return to England. This was a cause for which both Mona and Willem were eventually imprisoned:
"In April 1945, in the small town of Vlagtwedde, near the German border in north-eastern Holland, members of the North Nova Scotia Highlanders were astounded when an emaciated and sick woman approached them for help, claiming that, after nearly four years in Nazi prisons and camps, she had walked across Germany following a desperate and dramatic escape. Badly infected blisters on her bare feet were evidence of her three-week trek, but the soldiers were incredulous when she told them she was a Canadian - Mona Parsons from Wolfville, Nova Scotia."
What particularly drew me in about this book was the difficulty Andria Hill admitted she had in piecing together Mona’s story. In putting together this story, Hill relied on correspondence, interviews with people who knew Mona and of course archival records. Hill made several research trips to Holland and references visiting various local archives there. In my own line of work, I also have to often rely on dissection of records to piece together stories of people’s lives. Andria Hill did a great job piecing together the various chapters of Mona’s life.
The second book I read in January was All that is Bitter and Sweet: A Memoir by Ashley Judd. I confess to having watched some episodes of “The Judds” that aired on the OWN network. In doing so, I recall an episode where Naomi revealed she was upset after reading a memoir recently written by her daughter Ashley. My first thought was that Ashley Judd seemed young to be writing a memoir. After some Googling, I was then perplexed as to why Archbishop Desmond Tutu would write a glowing review of Judd’s book. Curiosity got the better of me so I decided this book would be the first purchase on the Kobo I received for Christmas.

I was surprised at how engaging the book was, or rather how Ashley Judd’s life story read. For me, the book had three prominent sections. The first focused on Ashley’s childhood – and the abuse, neglect, and depression that came as a result. The second section, which made up the majority of the book, emerged from diaries written by Judd during her work and subsequent travels with Population Services International (PSI). And thirdly, Judd reveals intimate details surrounding her process of therapy and recovery and working her way through it.
The dysfunctional childhood didn’t surprise me. But what did was Ashley’s work with PIS International. I will admit I hadn’t heard of PSI before, but now know that is a global non-profit organization “dedicated to improving the health of people in the developing world by focusing on serious challenges like a lack of family planning, HIV/AIDS, and maternal health.” Judd joined the PIS Board of Directors in 2004 and has even addressed the General Assembly of the UN on its behalf. A large portion of the book was developed from diaries Judd kept during her visits to developing countries on behalf of PSI. What was revealed is not for the faint of heart. Alongside PSI staff, Judd visited the dirtiest and most inhumane brothels in Southeast Asia, Africa and India, so as to meet, talk and educate women trapped in the sex trade. As difficult as it was to read in places, it also inspiring and reminded me to be appreciative of the life into which I was born.
No doubt it was her work with PSI that led to Judd enrolling in Harvard University’s John F. Kennedy School of Government, where she graduated with a Masters Degree in Public Administration in 2010. I could totally associate with her description of the difficulties in enrolling in a masters Degree and entering an academic environment after you have been out of school for more than ten years. I think this book would be appealing on many levels to a lot of women in their late 30s and 40s. Archbishop Tutu summarized it best:
“Ashley Judd has written a deeply moving story — amazingly, searingly, frank. It is her life story, warts and all. As I read her account of her childhood, I ask ‘How could one so traumatized, so abused in childhood, become the woman we know, so caring, so altruistic, so compassionate, so concerned for others, and so joyful?’”
–Archbishop Desmond Tutu
Friday, January 27, 2012
The Diviners et al.
A bookcase in my parent’s living room has held all of my novels and textbooks from my undergraduate degree. Some were purchased during my exchange year in Scotland, but most were obtained via my studies at Acadia University. As I did a double major in English and History (minor in Political Science and Art History), the majority of books were paperback novels and history, poly sci, and art history textbooks...and I treasured them all.
I took a variety of English classes at Acadia – 16th century literature, Victorian literature, Women’s literature and in my second year, I was introduced to Canadian literature. I will have to say that prior to this class Canadian literature was completely foreign to me. Unlike students in most other Canadian provinces, I had not read Margaret Atwood in high school. I will be honest and say I hadn’t even heard of her before going to Acadia. I sincerely hoped this has changed in PEI schools. Come to think of it, I remember looking at one of my grade ten English books that consisted of short stories written by contemporary American writers and thinking “Why are we reading this?” Anyway, I digress...
My classes of Canadian literature taken at Acadia opened up a wonderful new world to me – especially the third year class I took with Professor Jack Sheriff. We had to read one novel a week and took turns presenting – each time focused on the four elements of theme, character, style, and structure. One by one, we dissected novel after novel. I spent every waking moment reading that semester, but I loved every minute of it. I read Ernest Buckler’s Mountain and the Valley, in the ‘valley’ that it was written. Percy Janes’ House of Hate left a lasting impression on me. I was introduced to Margaret Atwood through The Edible Woman, a book that still puzzles me. And then I was introduced to the ‘other’ Margaret.
The Diviners was my introduction to Margaret Laurence and it was a book I would come to love for so many different reasons. I loved all the different themes that ran through the book – most of all the awakening that comes in one’s connection and /or discovery of family history. The Stone Angel was next and with it and many of her other books, Laurence’s female perspective on contemporary life drew me in. The Prophet’s Camel Bell and Heart of a Stranger were also engaging reads, but it was Laurence’s autobiography Dance of the Earth: a Memoir that is still one of my all time favourite books.
In the many years since my studies at Acadia, I have continually turned to Canadian Literature. I have come to love the work of Farley Mowat, Timothy Findley, Mordecai Richler, Ann-Marie MacDonald, and Robert Sedlack to name a few. I am so grateful for that class I took with Professor Sheriff so many years ago. He taught us how to dissect a novel and it changed the way I read books.
As connected as I was to these novels, I decided it was time to let them go. The older I get the less attached I am to material possessions. These books gave me so much and I will always have that – with or without their physical presence. While I was home at Christmas, I decided one of my projects was to go though all my books. I went through my three book cases and I will have to say that my archival appraisal skills came in very handy. Before I knew it I had four banker boxes full. The following day, I donated all four boxes to my local library. Hopefully somebody else will enjoy reading these Canadian classics and happen upon an author they will come to love.
Completely cleaning out the small bookcase in the living room also gives my Mother more room to house her own growing collection of books. My Dad doesn’t tend to read novels per say and tends to stick to the daily newspaper and monthly Ayrshire Review. But one book of Dad’s holds a special and amusing place on the bookcase. A few years ago, we cleaned out the attic at Auntie’s house. Going through boxes of books, I happened to come across the book below. Awarded to Dad when he attended St. Peters Bay North School, this book was a gem to find – even if he has no memory of receiving it. So it is an old, but recent addition to the new holdings in the Rossiter house. Out with the old and in with the new – to us.










